The Luckiest

I just wanted to post this. I absolutely love this song!! My little brother made our wedding video and had this song on it. It often makes me cry and I can't help but think of the love of my life, John, every time I hear it. I love you John.

To bed I go...

Well, it's official. I am now on bedrest. I have been staying down and keeping it easy for some time, but I'm officially on bedrest now. I went in Friday to have my fluid levels checked adn they were higher than the last time I went in. Also my blood pressure is on the rise, so I will now be monitored at least once a week for both of them. The bigger concern of the 2 is my blood pressure and the very good chance that I have developed preeclampsia. I developed high blood pressure when I was pregnant with Lucy, but it wasn't until I was 38 weeks and that was the reason I was induced. But only being 32 weeks, it causes a little more concern. So, what does this mean? It's pretty much a one day at a time thing at this point. We're just keeping our fingers crossed that we can make it to at least the end of March. I will be 36-37 weeks then, so it will lower the risk of Porter having to be in the hospital longer than normal. Anyways, I don't want this to be a "Woe is me" or "pity me" post, I just want to keep people updated on whats going on. Plus, I'm stuck on the couch with not much else to do haha. Both John and I feel like things are going to be ok no matter what happens. We're just doing what we can at this point to keep both me and Porter healthy.

In the mean time... isn't this girl adorable? I sure love her...

and him...

 

They keep me sane right now.

Small baby update....

So at my last appointment, I was measuring 4 weeks ahead of where I was date wise (I was 30 weeks measuring at 34), so my doctor wanted to do an ultrasound just to check everything out and make sure I wasn't really further along than we thought. I didn't think much of it cause we did this same thing with Lucy around this time. So Friday, we were able to go have another ultrasound and see our little man. Everything is fine with Porter, in fact he was playing peek-a-boo with us. And he is still definitely all BOY! He is measuring a little big, about a week and a half ahead, but we have big babies so that wasn't a big surprise. The surprise was that I have an excess amount of amniotic fluid. I guess the "normal" range is anywhere between 8-24 centimeters of fluid and I had somewhere between 21-22. This is why I am measuring so big. Having the extra fluid does a lot of things and can mean a lot of things. I have already been cramping REALLY bad and having contractions, and with the extra fluid, my uterus thinks I'm farther along than I really am making my body think that I should be having a baby when I shouldn't yet. Along with pre-term labor, I'm also at more of a risk for my blood pressure to go crazy again (my blood pressure went through the roof at the end with Lucy which is why I ended up being induced), and a few other things, but these are the ones we're most concerned about. So what does this mean? It means that from now until whenever I have this little man, on top of my regular doctor appointments, I will be going in at least once a week to check my fluid amounts and to watch and monitor the contractions I'm having. Needless to say, St. Mark's hospital is basically my second home for the next, hopefully at least, 5 weeks. I technically have 9 weeks till I'm due, but depending on how things are going physically for me and baby, our goal is to make it to 36 weeks and go from there.

It's been an interesting rollarcoaster of emotions for me as all of this has unfolded. I want so much for Porter to stay inside of me and keep growing and developing and to make it to 38-39 weeks, when I would normally have my c-section, but at the same time I am very much at peace with the fact I know that he is going to be coming earlier than that. Hopefully no more than 3-4 weeks early, but I know I'm not making it to my due date. It's gonna be tough and I'm sure there are going to be days where I will just want to beg my doctor to have this baby, but I know that I will have the strength to get through it. I have an amazing husband who will drop anything to take care of me and Lucy. I have amazing family and friends that help so much with Lucy and are there to just listen to me cry when I need it.

Anyways, just wanted to update ya'll really quick. It ended up being a lot longer than I wa splanning on it being, but oh well. This little man inside of me makes it all worth it.  Oh and if any of you have ever had to be on bedrest, I need some suggestions on what to do to keep myself and Lucy from going crazy, seeing as it's looking very possible that I'll be headed that direction. I just need some ideas of things I can do to keep Lucy busy and entertained when I can't do much. Thanks!!!

Oh boy...

Wow. Ok. I'm back. Yesterday, we finally had to break down and start paying for internet. Ever since we moved in, we have been able to pick up a very slow wireless internet connection, but alas, last week much to our dismay it stopped working. So we had to take another step into the grown-up world and get internet. AND BOY DO I LOVE IT!! It's so fast! haha Oh man. John asked if it was something worth blogging about and I said, "ABSOLUTELY!". So hopefully that is a good enough excuse for my total lack of blogging lately. That and I'm just lazy and tired all the time. Oh bother. 

So what have we been up to? Well, quite a bit. Let's start with the girl. Lucy is so huge! She is 21 months old going on 16. She is talking up a storm and I can't help but stop and laugh everytime I talk to her. It's crazy to me that I can have an actual conversation with her and she understands and can get her point across. I feel so blessed that she is such a good girl and that she has no problem entertaining herself. Especially the last couple of months with this pregnancy and the issues I've been having. But I'll go into that in a sec... She still loves to dance ( we have dance parties daily), sing(usually while dancing),

read books,

play with her "babies"(basically any baby or stuffed animal), 

help daddy do the dishes and be a "helper",

go to nursery and "play with toys", say prayers( she makes sure to say every persons name that she knows), and so many other things!! I am loving this stage and age that she is at. Its so much fun. Don't get me wrong, she drives me CRAZY sometimes, but I love her. 

John is working harder than ever and loving it. I know that he would tell me not to write this, but I'm so proud of him that I have to. He is doing so good at his job and is definitely making his way up the ladder and getting so many oppurtunities because he is so good at what he does. He shold be able to take is licensing test this fall and if all goes well, he will offically be a licensed Professional Engineer by next April. The test he has to take is, I think, 4-hours and pretty hard. He's already started studying for it. Sorry for bragging, I'm just so proud of him. He works so hard for our family and I am so grateful for him.

I don't know what I would do without him, especially right now. He has been so good to make sure I don't do too much and takes care of Lucy when he gets home from work. I am so lucky.

And as for me. Wow. This past couple of months has been a rollercoaster for sure. I am now 30 weeks pregnant.

(this was actually taken at about 27 weeks)

This pregnancy has been so different and so much harder than my pregnancy with Lucy. I have been suffering from some really bad abdominal pain for years and pregnancy only exaggerates the pain. But finally, I have been told that it's my gallbladder and that I will need to have it taken out as soon as I can after I have the baby. Probably about 6 weeks after. Unless the pain gets much worse and I really can't stand it. I have also been having contractions and cramping that's not getting better so we are monitoring that as well to make sure it doesn't get worse or more regular. If it does, I'll have to most likely be put on bed rest and meds that will stop the contractions. So far I haven't dilated or anything so that's good. So fun. So I pretty much just sit  during the day while poor Lucy entertains herself. Like I said though, she has been so good about it. I only have between 6-8 weeks left though! I will be having another c-section, so I just need to make it to at least 36 weeks, hopefully longer. It will really just depend on the pain I'm in and how I feel physically.

Anyways, no that this blog is sufficienty long enough, I promise I will now be better at updating more regularly. Especially as we get closer to Porter arriving!!